I miss you being right by my side.

It makes me feel like everything's all right.

You'll never know how much I love you and need you.

You'll never believe that I'm always thinking of you evey second of my life.

Though its cheesy, but I really mean it from the bottom of my heart.

All I wanna say is,

I MISS YOU! <333

aaaaaaaaaaaa

~Maine.

C&A

Why do people always take advantages of others?

They always make you trust them, but in the end they are the one that upsets you most.

They always gives you false hopes, and in the end they just make lame excuses and ignore you as if like nothing had ever happened and just walk away.

They expect you to forgive them without even saying sorry and they'll just use you over and over again like you're their dog or something.

Why do you have to be so sick?

Can't you just fuck off and leave me alone?

Get a life,bitch. You know who you are.

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~Maine.

Never trust.

17 days left.xoxo

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing

Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'

And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's

All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses

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I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood

I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could

We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt

I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

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Drinkin' tea in bed

Watching DVD's

When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines

You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers

As if we ever needed anything to entertain us

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The first time that you introduced me to your friends

And you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand

When I was feeling down, you made that face you do

There's no one in the world that could replace you

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Dreams, Dreams

Of when we had just started things

Dreams of you and me

It seems, It seems

That I can't shake those memories

I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

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The littlest things that take me there

I know it sounds lame but its so true

I know its not right, but it seems unfair

That the things are reminding me of you

Sometimes I wish we could just pretend

Even if only for one weekend

So come on, Tell me

Is this the end?

--The Littlest Things,Lily Allen.

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~Maine.

Someone,wake me up.

"It's not about keeping your promises, and it's not about following your heart.

It's about security."

--The Notebook.

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I finally know what I want.

I don't need any of your promises,

I can live without that.

I don't need to follow my heart,

Because I already know what I can't live without,

And its no one else but you.

That's all I ever needed.

You don't have to be right by my side 24/7,

You don't have to be here all the time.

All I want is just the sense of security you used to gave me.

You don't have to say how much you love me or buy me lots of things.

All I want is just the assurance of love you used to gave me.

We both thought we'd lost it all,

But we're wrong.

We both thought loving each othere was a mistake,

But we never thought its one worth making.

Loving you is a mistake,

And I'm willing to make that mistake over and over again, now and always.

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~Maine.

Fated to love you.

Pissed,offended,lost,confused,tired.

My feelings in a line. Ironic.

I don't feel like apologizing because I still think I don't have to.

I don't want to explain anything to you because you surely won't understand.

I lose my temper with you because I thought I was doing the best for both of us,

And yet you took me for granted.

I had to stood up for myself because you don't know the whole fucking truth,

And yet you blame me for everything.

I broke down and cry and told you I can't stand it anymore

You still don't understand, I don't blame you for it.

I can't stand it anymore because my life is just like wearing a mask,

I have to fake a smile, pretending I'm living a happy life everyday.

I'm tired of living a life of a hypocrite.

Of course I don't treat it as my responsibility that I must live a fake life,

But I just feel like I have to do it.

I thought it will be better for all of us.

You don't have to worry about me or give me any of your sympathy,

And I don't have to worry about you worrying me.

But it made my whole life boring, tiring and depressing.

It make me feel like my life is meaningless and there's no point living anymore.

Its like my whole life is revolving around the same thing every single day.

I can't let myself wear a mask anymore.

I have to be myself again.

But I need your acceptance and support to do so.

But you guys seem to pull me down each and everyday.

Your pathethic judgements and blames...

I am seriously sick of it!!!

Maybe you think that I'm a psychopathic jackass,

And I'm a pain in your epic ass.

Well, I really hope that you are mature enough to understand.

But sometimes, you can't just make things go your way.

But that doesn't mean that it'll stop you from being yourself.

And sometimes, you just have to make the decision to be happy.

Just realized that things aren't ever what you've hoped they be.

Its unfair, but that's how life goes.

Its torture, but at least it'll make me more mature.

Stay strong, I can make it through the rain.

aaa

~Maine.

I'm not perfect, so are you.

21 days left.

No one can really understand what I feel inside.

Neither do I.

aaaaaaaaaaa

"Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it

Make or break up, can't take this madness

We don't even really know why

All I know is, baby, I try and try so hard to keep our love alive

It cuts so deep, it hurts down to my soul

My friends tell me I ain't the same no more

We still need each other when we stumble and fall

How we gon' act like what we had, ain't nothing at all now

And I know we said let go but I kept on hanging on

Inside I know it's over, you're really gone

It's killing me 'cause there ain't nothing that I can do

Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around

And I try to front like, "Oh well," each time you let me down

See I can't get over you now no matter what I do

But baby, baby, I stay in love with you"

--I stay in love.

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39 days left.

~Maine.

I'll be there whenever you need me.

These words keep appearing to my mind each and every day.

They weren't just words, they were BEYOND than words.

They were your promise.

But where were you when I needed you?

You said you were sorry, you said you still remember.

But what's the point remembering when you just walk away like nothing had ever happened,

and expect me to forget everything?

I know its already the past, but you just can't blame me for living in it.

You'll be there for me everytime I need you?

That is seriously insane!

It's a promise that you could never keep, and its a promise that's already broken.

I repeat,BROKEN.

It made me feel silly for ever worrying to keeping my promise.

Who cares if I did anything stupid?

There was no reason why I shouldn't get to be stupid especially when the reason is obviously

NO ONE ELSE BUT Y-O-U!!!

I don't know if you're giving me false hopes, but if you do then still tell me.

Though its a broken promise , I still have a teeny-weeny-itsy-bitsy of hope on you.

Just...please,if you're sorry then SHOW it.

Don't expect me to forgive you.

Though I say I'm fine, doesn't mean that I forgive you,

It means that I'm just fine, got it?

God, you're a useless bastard.

Now I totally understand why you always say you're a useless guy.
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FUCK YOU ASSHOLE!

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p/s:I don't now why, i'm just so pissed ryte now.

aaaaaaaaa
You can't break a broken heart.

~Maine.

40 days left.